I'll write about this later...
You Are A Very Beautiful: December 2015, Part 2
9 years ago



So, lately I have been suffering from insomnia. Well, I think it's insomnia anyway. When I want to go to sleep, I can't. I usually don't sleep until 2 or 3 am even if I try to go to bed between 10 and 12. I wake up at 9 every day. It is a little hard getting up, but other than that, I'm fine. I've always been the type that needs 8 hours of sleep every night. Now I seem to work just fine on 6 or 7 hours. I wonder if it has anything to do with the exercise habits I have formed. I would think it would drain me of energy when the day is through.
When I was younger I used to think perfectionism was a good thing to be plauged with. Since then, I have learned that it really isn't good. When I do something- it has to be to perfection. My things have to be perfect. That seems okay... but then if something is imperfect, it's a reject. Problem is, I'm not perfect. I can't live up to this perfection that I seem to place so much importance on. Sometimes this causes me to give up on myself- which isn't good.


The lifestyle Americans have been living is a good and viable cause for other countries to hate us. Why should their economies suffer for our citizen's actions? I am not saying that I am exempt from the tendency to live beyond my means. I do it as well. But when we don't have consequeces, it is hard to learn when our actions have a positive or negative effect. We, as Americans will never see the true consequence of our actions because of this bailout.
so NOT cool. Also, "the OC." Come on. As if Orange County is heaven or something. Let me tell you... I lived there for 12 years. It isn't exactly heaven. It's city which means... mostly ugly. Not a whole lot of green. Don't believe everything you see on TV. Now I live just outside of Orange County and I like it there SO much better. I don't understand why people all the sudden made judgments about the area code you live in when that show came out. Grow up. People were paying to get their area codes tattooed the the back window of their cars. 909, 714, 951- WHO CARES?
For some reason, I get more and more excited for Halloween as I get older. It seems backwords, I know. When I was younger, it was all about the candy. Now, it is like a cool Fall tradition where you can be someone else. I can dress up like a freak and not be made fun of. That's COOL!
friend were aso excited to get older. I think the age that I would have liked to stay was 17 or 18. But even that was old when I was younger. I wouldn't want to stay in that maturity level... but certain things are appealing. The older you get, the more responsibility you have. Funny thing is... I think I'd make a good old man. I like old man things. Old man music, the old man pass that lets you get away with anything, old man humor, etc. Haha. I guess I've just never been a particular fan of the middle part of life. Maybe because it is so blurry. There are so many choices to make. It seems like being a kid and being old is fairly predictable.
So I have a side story about Sonic and how the people there are trying to distroy my life. So on Saturday night I went with Jeff, Jessie, Michelle, Rosalinda, and Lucy to this music/art festival. Afterwards, we went to Sonic to get ice cream/ a bite to eat. Well, I wasn't really hungy- just a little hungry... and I like Sonic's onion rings. So Michelle tries to order them for me and they say they are out. So I decide to get mozarella sticks instead (when were like 2 dollars more than the onion rings). I sit down and they bring out onion rings to Jessie. I'm like- "WHAT?!" After explaining to the lady that they told me they were out, she rolls her eyes and says "their being stupid." Later she gives me onion rings (for free). But, when I ask for ketchup she replies, "we're out." GRRR! Then Michelle asks some other guy for ketchup and they bring some out. It was a difficult night.
I don't like frosting. With the exception of the chocolate frosting you can buy at the store (in little plastic containers by the cake mix) if it is put on chocolate cake. I will scrap off excess frosting on anything else. Oh wait- cinnamon rolls are another exception.
Okay. This one is actually very embarrassing. Count yourselves lucky that I trust you all with this information. The only girl I've kissed was in elementary school. That's right. When I was little I was like in love with this girl haha. I thought I'd marry her one day. Well, anyway- I never dated in high school, and I've never had a relationship that was sustained long enough for me to go for it.
So, I never use an electric razor. Why? Because they don't give a close enough shave. I will spend quite a chunk of time shaving my face, going against the grain and pulling the skin tight so I can get as close as possible. I always cut my self around the jaw line. It never feels good. I just want a close shave dang it! Then I go two or three days without shaving and repeat. Someone needs to come up with a better system for shaving. Less painful preferably.


I have a strict routine every night before I go to bed. First, I brush my teeth (with toothpaste). Then I floss and use a tongue scraper. Then I brush again, making sure that I brush my tongue and the roof of my mouth (gently). Then I rinse with Listerine. I also have what looks like a pipe-cleaner on a toothbrush handle that I use in between two of my teeth sometimes. Now, the explanation. So, this all started when I was on my mission in Korea. I was going to be in a foreign country for 2 years and I did not want to have to go to the dentist. I also had a feeling that Korean food wasn't particularly good for your teeth (kimchi's acidity is probably pretty high). I couldn't remember if you are supposed to floss before or after you brush. So, to be safe, I brushed before AND after I flossed. It may also have to do with the fact that growing up, I always had cavities. I brushed just as much as any other kid- I just had bad teeth. So now I make sure I brush extremely well so that when the dentist looks at me accusingly I can say- "I floss every night, use Listerine, and brush at least 3 times a day." Mostly I prove to myself that I really couldn't be at fault for any cavities i might have and that it would have to be my bad teeth genes.
So, for some reason, when I warm things up in the microwave I have the tendency to punch in a high amount of time, knowing that my food doesn't need to be in that long. Then i just open the microwave when I think it is done. I don't usually bother to hit the "clear" button which really gets to some people. I think I do it out of laziness. Why type in [4] - [5] - [Start] when you can just put [1] and it begins heating for one minute. But now that I think about it- this isn't always the case. Often times I will open the microwave 1 second before it is done because I hate the beeping sound. I have to work really hard to hit the "clear" button so that the clock will be displayed and not "0:01." My old roommate- Eric Badger hated when I didn't clear it.
Coming around the corner on the way to
We went exploring in a small canyon of rock.
I took this picture at the beginning of our last hike-
Exploring...
I picture I took in Arches National Park
The Family
Stone stairway in the botanical garden
Cool flower picture that my sister took
It was a slice of a Redwood with an explanation of how to read
A cool bonsai tree
My sister Morgan and Dad